feelings that will never be forgotten

I don't know why it feels so hurt me.
Fighting with my best friends?
I think it's very bad thing to do, but actually I don't know what to do.
They're lying to me and it happened very often
so I think I can give another 2nd chance to them.

but now, it really hurts me.
I can't forget them
they're too precious for me, I just can't enjoy my day like usual without them.
where are you guys?
why you do that to me?
if you want to say something,please tell me the truth, not a lie.
truth does hurt,but it makes me better to know from yourself than the other people.

in this time, I want to cry, but I realize that I should not do.
I know I can find another friend who better than all of you, but they will be different with you.
my world never be the same without you
I miss you all guys
I love you until now
and I don't know why eventhough you hurt me, I'm still here to hear your apologize.
so, if you know that I'm waiting your apologize, please do it now.
this situation makes me confuse.

*those referred to in this paper, they are:
-Faisal Fahmi
-Muhammad Sulaiman
-Fajar Surya Lesmana